Group Talks

So I started speaking with all the adult Sunday School classes today. It was fun. My voice shakes a lot which I think is funny. It's not really because I am nervous, but I think more because I have so much to say and not a lot of time to say it so I don't want to miss something so I get ahead of myself and so on. Needless to say, I forgot stuff. But that's ok.

I just hope it was successful. I mean, group meetings aren't as successful as one on one, but it is really the only way for me to get alot of people to hear about this mission. It makes me nervous though because I kinda feel like any money I raise is going to come from this church. I just have little access to ANYTHING but this church. It has been everything over the past few years, my place to worship, fellowship, work. It kinda rules out having any people in my life who are not really connected to this church. And that is why these meetings mean so much to me.

Anyway, now I am at the YCLC waiting for the students to get here because tonight I get to lead the high school kids not only in my "mission" talk, but also a short "sermon". I am excited about it. It's the first time they have really seen me in a preaching way and I am all ready to talk about Gideon. Gideon kinda drives me crazy, which is why I am talking aobut him. He reminds me of myself. When he heard God calling he argued, and disbelieved, and questioned and needed proof, and it sounds so silly to do, but I find myself doing it all the time. Anyway, I hope the kids get it.